Siân’s winter sea swim

Siân took part in a Boxing Day sea swim to raise funds and awareness, and as a part of her healing following three miscarriages.

The silence of miscarriage, and people's reluctance to talk about it openly, spurred me to want to do something to raise awareness.

Completing my Boxing Day swim in the sea in aid of the Miscarriage Association was a small yet meaningful part of my healing from three miscarriages.

Going through IVF is the most exciting, nerve wracking, physically and emotionally exhausting experience, but as a single woman I felt empowered. All of my hopes and dreams of having a baby were set and I imagined so clearly our future lives together.

From seeing a tiny heartbeat and the hope that brings, to it not being there the next week is soul destroying. My world fell apart. I have never felt such deep loneliness and numbness. In the same year, both my grandparents died, which all combined to leave a huge hole in my heart and in my life.

The Miscarriage Association made me realise that I am not alone and it has surprised me how many other women are affected by such darkness, and that we share the same feelings. The silence of miscarriage, and people’s reluctance to talk about it openly, spurred me to want to do something to raise awareness. The location of my Boxing Day swim in Tenby, Wales, was also very important as my grandparents lived very close by, so I knew they were watching down on me, together with my angels in the sky.