Marius’ story: navigating grief and miscarriage
In Marius’ story, he shares the heart-breaking experience of pregnancy loss that he and his wife went through, and the inspiring ways he finds purpose through loss.
đź’” Three babies. Three losses. One broken silence.
In 2020, while the world shut down in fear and isolation, my wife and I faced a heartbreak that words can’t hold.
We lost three babies. One after the other.
Miscarriage.
A word whispered.
A grief often hidden.
A pain society rarely allows men to speak about.
I didn’t know how to grieve.
Was it even “okay” to mourn an 8-week, 9-week, or 12-week baby?
I shut myself away.
I wanted to cry.
But instead, I stayed silent.
The NHS gave us no answers.
No closure.
Just “why us?” echoing in our home.
Running became my therapy.
Cold showers became my armour.
Step by step, breath by breath, I found a way to carry the pain.
I run for our three angel babies.
When I think of them, I cry.
And when I cry, I run harder.
In 2021, I ran over 3,000 km in costume — Superman, Batman, Minions, T-Rex, even a rainbow unicorn inflatable.
On the outside, I left smiles behind.
On the inside, I was breaking.
But laughter opens doors.
People laugh, then they ask why.
Then we talk.
And healing begins.
Four years later, I’m still running — 50 km every week for 78 weeks.
Still flying the flag.
Still trying to help as many people as possible, while putting smiles on faces.
Because here’s the truth:
We’re told as men to be strong. Don’t cry. Just get on with it.
But silence isn’t strength.
Real strength is saying “I’m not okay.”
Real strength is being vulnerable.
Real strength is letting others know: you are not alone.
✨ My advice?
Talk.
Move your body.
Cry if you need to.
Get fresh air.
Take a cold shower — even for 30 seconds.
Do small things that make you feel alive.
Eat well. Rest well.
Because you matter.
Miscarriage is not the end of hope.
Grief can become purpose.
Pain can become power.
And even in the darkest moments, laughter and love can carry us forward.
👉 Find purpose even in pain — it can be the greatest motivator for doing something greater than yourself.
For our three angel babies.
For every parent who’s suffered in silence.
For every person who needs to hear this:
You are not alone. đź’™